Diabolic scientist and Dynamic nuclear reactor core.

Hey to the girl who was trying to sweep people off their feet (I suppose I need not say literally and metaphorically ),

The function went really well.(haha..How can a function not go good when Aphro decides to dance and trees also decide to join in by moving their leaves according to the tune of winds).First off, finding the place was an adventure like traveling to heaven.(But hey, marriages are made in heaven, aren't they ?). Congrats on finding the groom,house and decor.I used to think waiting for your turn during interview must be the loneliest moment in the world.But you know what beats that , when you look into the eyes of your girl during so called romantic photo shoot and realize you are giving away your entire life's work till that to a girl whom you barely know with the hopes that discovering each other along the way of life would be an exciting mystery for both.That must be the loneliest moment for any man.This must be partly due to decision and partly due to the consequences.Don't paint me as anti-arranged marriage,but that's the reality.There is this Diabolic scientist friend of mine who came to wedding yesterday and was amazed by the nuclear reactor and how dynamic it was.It was like the way core of a reactor gets activated when it is near protons(Too much of science to digest?).But my friend was able to see what gave energy to reactor.It is just being around with lovely people and having a good time. Isn't it quite natural for a core to get activated that way(Trust me,this scientist friend of mine knows the core better than anyone else).There are a couple of observations our scientist has made.Please hear his mind out.They might be entirely right or entirely wrong,So he asks you to take this and try not like a lipstick but like the foundation cream(I think he just wants to tell you were gorgeous yesterday).

1) Bride and groom entering in bullet was fine,but it would've been more good if they would've arrived with their parents on either side and they slowly fade in background as the entrance comes,in a way to symbolize "Our journey has come to an end and Your journey begins from here")

2) Though my Aphro(scientist also knows that BTW) is more like her father in her behavior,it's her mother who runs the show pretty much everywhere.She is one person who can't be easily convinced.

3) Scientist sure had a blast when core asked what happened to your inner peace despite knowing the answer and decides to have a tit for tat moment since it is the scientist who usually talks in a way two people interpret the same answer in two different ways.

4) How was the food?.It's an objective question which had become subjective.For which the scientist tells "I Don't know , clever uh"

5) Do you know the moment Aphro was in her peak of beauty,It was when she was having her dinner along with eccentric scientist and co.

6) Scientist was a bit short of words when core asked him "Wasupp(Social interaction,my ass)" Basically because he didn't know what to say at that time(reality trumps imagination sometimes).

BTW that in-laws house visiting ritual was a bluff na.

Finally,who names their dog "COURAGE",it's like I don't have it,let me atleast have a dog in that name.Next time,name the dog as "ORGASM" 

Bon voyage ( should I even say I'll miss your presence !! )

My dear Aphro,

As I think what to write in this good bye post,it gives me both joy and sadness at the same time to know that you will be leaving for your sister's marriage.I know how much your sister means to you and how trembled you are because of this,like a rain drop which doesn't knows the place it is going to hit even though it enjoys the fall(assuming male is the Raindrop and female is the Earth).I also don't know what will happen when my sister gets married(I think I'll cry more than her).Cry your heart out and just don't hold anything back.(Trust me,I know the pain and guilt of unexpressed tears).I hope you will be in your physical peak on the day of marriage.I always think of what to tell on that day when I see you.

Will it be just a you look pretty today or will your beauty silence me.
Will it be "I'm trying very hard to get her attention but she deosn't see me(Dude!.Doesn't that happen always)"
Will I be the one dressed very badly that day?(Well,you knew your answer today when you saw her didn't you?)

Funny how many people still see outer beauty and not the inner one.
This is a poem which I am dedicating to My Aphro.

We all have that one person who is perennially locked in our memories forever
I am a simple man who is trying hard to make sure it doesn't remain as memories forever
Let me be honest, I too don't know why I see you wheresoever
Love,as they say makes people act haver
You also think it will be easy to remove him from my life howsoever
Only I'm the one who is trying hard that it happens never
Untill the day you tell me I love(you)soever
Let me be happy to wait till the time whensoever
Only don't make me to forget myself howsoever
Very few people have the capacity to torture my soul whithersoever
Except you who is very much bent on this endeavour
Missing me must be a lot easier for you,however
Every minute just passes by me telling not to wait for you but I tell them I'm dissever.

There is a hidden message inside this poem.Find it out and comment it.You must be thinking "Isn't this hidden message thing getting a bit older".Yes,it is.But that's the only way I have to make you dig deeper into your mind and make you take long trips.

I'm going on this trip only to clear all the uncertainties in my life but isn't love the deepest uncertainty of our existence?

Just an update..I don't know what else I can tell to make you find this out.Maybe I'll tell it on your sister's wedding .. :)

Aphroception and interception

My Dear Aphro,

I could picturize you hurriedly heading to my blog the moment I told you to do so in WhatsApp.I do believe the last time you did this would've been a painful task for you.But believe me or not , All I've ever wished and wanted was you to be happy.But I wish I was there with you on Friday (The day after you read the blog).That was definitely a bad turn of events , like a snowball rolling in the gutter.I wanted to give you a nice , warm and deep hug and tell that "Things are going to get better,don't worry ",thereby trying to take your blast of thoughts inside me to protect you.Funny how things go from good to bad in a moment's notice.Having said that I'd definitely like to know what made your mind of the mountain to go from 0-50%.That 55:24 seconds was like flying between the clouds for me.I was walking like a mad spirit in the same place.There are sometimes when we wish we had a better efficient body to express our emotions on comparison with our soul.It was one of those moments.I'm excited that another dear friend of mine,Mr.IB has gladly accepted our invitation to help us get over differences.He's just great , ain't he !! I still am trying to sound my head around the way you told no physical contact for two years.You could've used intercourse , to be more specific.we can have an extensive discussion on that I believe.Have you ever tried revisiting a memory just to create a new one on top of that thereby making sure both of them remain close to your heart?.I did it that day.I rode on my school road and just as I was trying to revisit my school memories I was there trying to make sure the memory of me talking crazy things to you gets embedded along with it !!. I'd like to name this Aphroception(yep,like inception) , as Love is the only emotion strong enough to create these type of paradoxes in life.Coming back to reality It was very hard for me to pass these holidays as I could feel time passing by me like a snail.I wanted to see my Aphro just after sunrise , the way a sunflower turns its head towards the sun and I hate seeing you in our college uniform because I can't tell anything other than a "Hi,how did the holidays go" to you once I see you .You have no idea how much I'd like to see what goes on in your mind behind that warm smile of yours tmrw though I don't know how to understand it.
Remember, waking up at 5 and reaching out to you is not a difficult task for a man who has lost days of sleep thinking how to reach your heart.

Yours (a bit complicated)
How do I name me!!

She tells me !!!

So this is how the day began.I was asked by My(Even after all this? see who's the silly one here) Aphro what would you like on a date.Would it be coffee or tea? and the day ended with she telling me to give a date within which I will forget her(didn't you have it coming?).How can I tell it's not about drink,but with whom I'm meant to share it.The day goes on pretty much uninteresting after that the way a leaf falls of from a tree due to wind.Nothing interesting,except maybe for the leaf it thinks it's life is about to change(Yes,this is also a four letter word.).The day ends with me having some amount of whiskey with a good friend of mine and calling Aphro just to empty my mind(you wish for life,you should not have done that!!Done what?.Former or latter?).When people are drunk,they definitely speak frankly but not necessarily truly.I believe both are two different things.Sometimes truth manifests itself posthumously.The second whiskey round is always my favorite. Because from the third one,you don't get any taste of sorts.

There are some people who look good in whatever they wear(Yep,she's one amongst them) and then we have myself whose knowledge of dressing can be compared to level of knowledge a lizard has about Tube lights(Zero It is!!)

She tells me "I'm not worthy for you"

I think "It was never about worthiness.Only about willingness"

She tells me "I need some time"

I think "I'd give till my last drop of blood to get a time machine"

She tells me "I don't know what to say"

I think "Oh yeah!!.Welcome to my world where I don't even know how to think when it comes to you"

She tells me "put a DE-addiction program schedule and remove the feelings from your mind"

I think "Dear,you are not a common cold to remove easily,you are like cancer.It is impossible to remove you from me without removing myself first"

She tells me "Block me"

I think "When you can stop you don't want to, and when you want to stop, you can't"

People dont just go apart,they reach a place and they just end up being in two directions which are not necessarily opposites.Think of it like two cars in same tunnel same direction but one in entrance and other in exit.It's like trying to impose my unrealities on her when I myself don't know how to take care of things in reality.Here I am trying to live, or rather, I am trying to teach the death within me how to live.
The message I am sending her now to see this post must be the one which is being sent after a long time and my first step towards DE-addiction.But again is it possible to remove someone whose scent is enough to make me weak and rushes me back to memories the way river reaches the sea.
Time will tell the answer,won't it !?!

Seasons and swings

I have this girl friend(Notice the space between girl and friend,that's where i stand) who will be hence forth called as Aphrodite.Not all Aphrodite's are aphrodisiac but she however is an exception.There is a lot to tell about her and I plan to write a separate thread in this blog so that it doesn't affect the other portions(Wow.she must be feeling bliss-ed uh!!).To start with,there is a poem with which I'd begin.It goes like this..

I know a girl who smiles like summer sun rays
I know a girl whose eyes give me more shivers than winter snowfalls
I know a girl who knows when to turn inward,just like autumn leaves
I know a girl who sweet-smells like the strawberries which ripe in spring

She asked me "Does the girl know that she means this much to you"
for which I replied "Worry not Dear!!.She might be the seasons,But I'm earth.I just want her to be present through out my rotations all along my lifetime"

Catching up & Welcoming "The year of uncertainty"

After a brief gap of  two years I am back(Yeah,as though thousand's were waiting for ur arrival) .I always have this voice inside my head which tell me crazy things all the times.The reason I'm like this is because I listen to this very often.It is a voice which we all have and only some listen from time to time.So,from now on,that voice will be named as Mr.Myman and the things he tells will be in bold and italic phrases.Many times he doesn't want to be bold but hey,this is my blog right.?(Right)
Anyways,what has happened to me that I was compelled to google my own blog's name and find out it out in bottom of the pyramid and revive it back like the great pharaoh?.Too much question marks right.I was working in a IT company as an Analyst then I thought why not do MBA(WTF!!You don't even ask for extra sambhar in hotels and are thinking about MBA).I got my courage up and then finally after giving the MAT test I got selected into a good(really?) college in bengaluru. I joined this college in June 2016 and 2nd semester is going on as i write this.This course as such is very simple but some people make it very tough for everyone.From now on,I hope I'll be more active and share whatever thoughts come in my mind. Oflate,I'm finding it very difficult to suppress Myman as he has increased his influence in me.This blog is to write whatever we feel without any filters,second thoughts and apprehensions.So,Once again I welcome you into my world.Names of people will not change but I'll haven't figured out how to bridge the gap between reality and my fantasy.See you soon!!

Welcome to my world

Hallo everyone.First of all I bally happy that I have completed my goodreads challenge for this year (100 books read in this year 2015).I do not remember where and with which book I started,but hey who doesn't love happy endings.So,till this time the thought of writing a book review did not come to my mind at all.Now that I can tell I've had a considerable knowledge,I thought why not take the bait.Before I start,let me tell you something. Books and movies can never be compared.I'd like to smack anyone who tells movies are always better than books.It is like comparing premium level cars and budget ones on the basis of the fact that both of them have wheels.I have not rode a premium car till date but I can definitely assure you I know how it feels to be in one.When in life will you know how it feels to save your vice President at the time you've lost your girlfriend or what a visually challenged girl undergoes when she gets struck with a valuable diamond in a new place without her father at the time of WW-II.The only way to experience these is to read a book.Books are the cheapest vacation you can take, like ever.What is the use of a thought if it is not shared or are all the thoughts shareworthy..?.For ex.The girl whose ass you've been checking out turns out to be the one whom you know as the girl sitting right next to you at workplace.Now,will you go to her and tell."Hey there ,you make me feel like it would've been wonderful if I had born in ancient times,when it was quite easy to ride an ass.".You'd rather keep this thought to yourself.The point here is that whatever I write here or thinking to write while I am writing are all my views and thoughts and should not be taken too personal.of course, you are free to criticize whatever you feel like.I'd be updating mostly on books and movies with occasional surprises (Who doesn't like surprises?!?).So,I welcome you to my world,created by a collision of words.