Aphroception and interception

My Dear Aphro,

I could picturize you hurriedly heading to my blog the moment I told you to do so in WhatsApp.I do believe the last time you did this would've been a painful task for you.But believe me or not , All I've ever wished and wanted was you to be happy.But I wish I was there with you on Friday (The day after you read the blog).That was definitely a bad turn of events , like a snowball rolling in the gutter.I wanted to give you a nice , warm and deep hug and tell that "Things are going to get better,don't worry ",thereby trying to take your blast of thoughts inside me to protect you.Funny how things go from good to bad in a moment's notice.Having said that I'd definitely like to know what made your mind of the mountain to go from 0-50%.That 55:24 seconds was like flying between the clouds for me.I was walking like a mad spirit in the same place.There are sometimes when we wish we had a better efficient body to express our emotions on comparison with our soul.It was one of those moments.I'm excited that another dear friend of mine,Mr.IB has gladly accepted our invitation to help us get over differences.He's just great , ain't he !! I still am trying to sound my head around the way you told no physical contact for two years.You could've used intercourse , to be more specific.we can have an extensive discussion on that I believe.Have you ever tried revisiting a memory just to create a new one on top of that thereby making sure both of them remain close to your heart?.I did it that day.I rode on my school road and just as I was trying to revisit my school memories I was there trying to make sure the memory of me talking crazy things to you gets embedded along with it !!. I'd like to name this Aphroception(yep,like inception) , as Love is the only emotion strong enough to create these type of paradoxes in life.Coming back to reality It was very hard for me to pass these holidays as I could feel time passing by me like a snail.I wanted to see my Aphro just after sunrise , the way a sunflower turns its head towards the sun and I hate seeing you in our college uniform because I can't tell anything other than a "Hi,how did the holidays go" to you once I see you .You have no idea how much I'd like to see what goes on in your mind behind that warm smile of yours tmrw though I don't know how to understand it.
Remember, waking up at 5 and reaching out to you is not a difficult task for a man who has lost days of sleep thinking how to reach your heart.

Yours (a bit complicated)
How do I name me!!

She tells me !!!

So this is how the day began.I was asked by My(Even after all this? see who's the silly one here) Aphro what would you like on a date.Would it be coffee or tea? and the day ended with she telling me to give a date within which I will forget her(didn't you have it coming?).How can I tell it's not about drink,but with whom I'm meant to share it.The day goes on pretty much uninteresting after that the way a leaf falls of from a tree due to wind.Nothing interesting,except maybe for the leaf it thinks it's life is about to change(Yes,this is also a four letter word.).The day ends with me having some amount of whiskey with a good friend of mine and calling Aphro just to empty my mind(you wish for life,you should not have done that!!Done what?.Former or latter?).When people are drunk,they definitely speak frankly but not necessarily truly.I believe both are two different things.Sometimes truth manifests itself posthumously.The second whiskey round is always my favorite. Because from the third one,you don't get any taste of sorts.

There are some people who look good in whatever they wear(Yep,she's one amongst them) and then we have myself whose knowledge of dressing can be compared to level of knowledge a lizard has about Tube lights(Zero It is!!)

She tells me "I'm not worthy for you"

I think "It was never about worthiness.Only about willingness"

She tells me "I need some time"

I think "I'd give till my last drop of blood to get a time machine"

She tells me "I don't know what to say"

I think "Oh yeah!!.Welcome to my world where I don't even know how to think when it comes to you"

She tells me "put a DE-addiction program schedule and remove the feelings from your mind"

I think "Dear,you are not a common cold to remove easily,you are like cancer.It is impossible to remove you from me without removing myself first"

She tells me "Block me"

I think "When you can stop you don't want to, and when you want to stop, you can't"

People dont just go apart,they reach a place and they just end up being in two directions which are not necessarily opposites.Think of it like two cars in same tunnel same direction but one in entrance and other in exit.It's like trying to impose my unrealities on her when I myself don't know how to take care of things in reality.Here I am trying to live, or rather, I am trying to teach the death within me how to live.
The message I am sending her now to see this post must be the one which is being sent after a long time and my first step towards DE-addiction.But again is it possible to remove someone whose scent is enough to make me weak and rushes me back to memories the way river reaches the sea.
Time will tell the answer,won't it !?!

Seasons and swings

I have this girl friend(Notice the space between girl and friend,that's where i stand) who will be hence forth called as Aphrodite.Not all Aphrodite's are aphrodisiac but she however is an exception.There is a lot to tell about her and I plan to write a separate thread in this blog so that it doesn't affect the other portions(Wow.she must be feeling bliss-ed uh!!).To start with,there is a poem with which I'd begin.It goes like this..

I know a girl who smiles like summer sun rays
I know a girl whose eyes give me more shivers than winter snowfalls
I know a girl who knows when to turn inward,just like autumn leaves
I know a girl who sweet-smells like the strawberries which ripe in spring

She asked me "Does the girl know that she means this much to you"
for which I replied "Worry not Dear!!.She might be the seasons,But I'm earth.I just want her to be present through out my rotations all along my lifetime"

Catching up & Welcoming "The year of uncertainty"

After a brief gap of  two years I am back(Yeah,as though thousand's were waiting for ur arrival) .I always have this voice inside my head which tell me crazy things all the times.The reason I'm like this is because I listen to this very often.It is a voice which we all have and only some listen from time to time.So,from now on,that voice will be named as Mr.Myman and the things he tells will be in bold and italic phrases.Many times he doesn't want to be bold but hey,this is my blog right.?(Right)
Anyways,what has happened to me that I was compelled to google my own blog's name and find out it out in bottom of the pyramid and revive it back like the great pharaoh?.Too much question marks right.I was working in a IT company as an Analyst then I thought why not do MBA(WTF!!You don't even ask for extra sambhar in hotels and are thinking about MBA).I got my courage up and then finally after giving the MAT test I got selected into a good(really?) college in bengaluru. I joined this college in June 2016 and 2nd semester is going on as i write this.This course as such is very simple but some people make it very tough for everyone.From now on,I hope I'll be more active and share whatever thoughts come in my mind. Oflate,I'm finding it very difficult to suppress Myman as he has increased his influence in me.This blog is to write whatever we feel without any filters,second thoughts and apprehensions.So,Once again I welcome you into my world.Names of people will not change but I'll haven't figured out how to bridge the gap between reality and my fantasy.See you soon!!