So this is how the day began.I was asked by My(Even after all this? see who's the silly one here) Aphro what would you like on a date.Would it be coffee or tea? and the day ended with she telling me to give a date within which I will forget her(didn't you have it coming?).How can I tell it's not about drink,but with whom I'm meant to share it.The day goes on pretty much uninteresting after that the way a leaf falls of from a tree due to wind.Nothing interesting,except maybe for the leaf it thinks it's life is about to change(Yes,this is also a four letter word.).The day ends with me having some amount of whiskey with a good friend of mine and calling Aphro just to empty my mind(you wish for life,you should not have done that!!Done what?.Former or latter?).When people are drunk,they definitely speak frankly but not necessarily truly.I believe both are two different things.Sometimes truth manifests itself posthumously.The second whiskey round is always my favorite. Because from the third one,you don't get any taste of sorts.
There are some people who look good in whatever they wear(Yep,she's one amongst them) and then we have myself whose knowledge of dressing can be compared to level of knowledge a lizard has about Tube lights(Zero It is!!)
She tells me "I'm not worthy for you"
I think "It was never about worthiness.Only about willingness"
She tells me "I need some time"
I think "I'd give till my last drop of blood to get a time machine"
She tells me "I don't know what to say"
I think "Oh yeah!!.Welcome to my world where I don't even know how to think when it comes to you"
She tells me "put a DE-addiction program schedule and remove the feelings from your mind"
I think "Dear,you are not a common cold to remove easily,you are like cancer.It is impossible to remove you from me without removing myself first"
She tells me "Block me"
I think "When you can stop you don't want to, and when you want to stop, you can't"
People dont just go apart,they reach a place and they just end up being in two directions which are not necessarily opposites.Think of it like two cars in same tunnel same direction but one in entrance and other in exit.It's like trying to impose my unrealities on her when I myself don't know how to take care of things in reality.Here I am trying to live, or rather, I am trying to teach the death within me how to live.
The message I am sending her now to see this post must be the one which is being sent after a long time and my first step towards DE-addiction.But again is it possible to remove someone whose scent is enough to make me weak and rushes me back to memories the way river reaches the sea.
Time will tell the answer,won't it !?!